Chapter 3: The Number in the Margin
The phone number had been written twice.
The first version was crossed out so violently that the paper had nearly torn.
The second was written underneath it in smaller numbers, as though whoever wrote it had been afraid someone might see.
I stared at it.
Daniel Parker.
A man I had never met.
A man Sarah had spent years describing as absent, unreliable, and dangerous.
A man whose number my eight-year-old stepson had secretly written down because he was afraid nobody would believe him.
“Ethan,” I said carefully, “where did you get this number?””
He hugged his backpack against his chest.
“Mom wrote it.””
“When?””
“I don’t know.””
“You saw her write it?””
He nodded.
“Where?””
“In the laundry room.””
My pulse quickened.
“What was she doing?””
“She was talking on the phone.””
“With who?””
“I don’t know.””
I looked back at the paper.
“Did she say your dad’s name?””
Ethan nodded.
“She said Daniel.””
I felt the air leave my lungs.
For years, I had accepted Sarah’s story without question.
Daniel had left before Ethan was born.
Daniel had never paid child support.
Daniel had never asked to see him.
Daniel, according to Sarah, had moved across the country and started another life.
I had never even considered that there might be another side.
Because why would I?
Sarah was my wife.
Ethan was my family.
And Daniel was a stranger.
Or at least that was what I thought.
I pulled out a chair and sat down.
“Ethan, I need you to answer one thing honestly.””
He nodded.
“Has your mom talked to Daniel recently?””
He stared at me for several seconds.
Then he whispered, “Yes.””
My hands went cold.
“How recently?””
He thought.
“A few weeks ago.””
“A few weeks?””
“Maybe three.””
I looked toward the front door.
Sarah could walk through it at any moment.
Suddenly, the familiar house felt like a place I didn't recognize.
“What did she say?””
“I couldn't hear all of it.””
“What could you hear?””
Ethan swallowed.
“She said, ‘You can't just come back now.’”
I stared at him.
“What else?””
“She said, ‘You had your chance.’”
His face tightened.
“Then she said you didn't know.””
I leaned forward.
“Didn't know what?””
“I don't know.””
“Ethan, it's okay. Take your time.””
He twisted the sleeve of his pajama shirt around his fingers.
“She said you thought Dad abandoned us.””
I sat completely still.
Us.
Not Ethan.
Us.
That tiny word felt like a crack opening in the floor.
“Did Daniel answer?””
Ethan nodded.
“He said he didn't.””
“Didn't what?””
“Abandon you.””
I shut my eyes.
For a moment, all I could hear was the refrigerator humming behind me.
Then Ethan said something that made me look up.
“He also said he tried to come.””
“When?””
“Before you married Mom.””
I stared at him.
“What?””
“He said Mom wouldn't let him see me.””
The room seemed to tilt.
“Did you hear him say that?””
“Yes.””
“How?””
Ethan looked embarrassed.
“I picked up Mom's second phone.””
My expression hardened.
“What second phone?””
“The little black one.””
I had seen it before.
Sarah told me it was an old work phone she kept because of the battery.
A phone I had never touched.
“What happened after you heard them?””
Ethan lowered his voice.
“Mom found me.””
My stomach tightened.
“What did she do?””
“She wasn't yelling.””
That answer scared me more than if he'd said she was.
“She just looked at me.””
“Then?””
“She said, ‘Did you hear that?’”
I nodded slowly.
“What did you tell her?””
“I said no.””
“Why?””
“Because she looked scared.””
I glanced at the letter again.
The childish handwriting.
The careful little sentences.
This wasn't a kid inventing stories.
He had been collecting pieces because he was afraid.
“What happened next?””
“She took the phone.””
“And?””
“She told me something.””
His eyes filled again.
“What?””
“She said, ‘You belong here. Don't let anybody take you from me.’”
My jaw tightened.
I wanted to ask a hundred questions.
Instead, I forced myself to breathe.
“Did she mention me?””
He nodded.
“She said you weren't really my dad.””
The words were familiar now.
But they still hurt.
Then Ethan added:
“She said you only wanted to be my dad because Mom married you.””
I felt anger rising in my chest.
Not at Ethan.
Never at him.
At the person who had apparently been teaching a child to doubt the one adult who stayed.
I stood up.
“I need to make a phone call.””
Ethan grabbed my wrist.
“No.””
I looked down.
“Why not?””
“She'll know.””
“Who?””
“Mom.””
I looked at the little boy's hand wrapped around my wrist.
“She always knows.””
I crouched beside him.
“Ethan, listen to me. I won't call anyone just because I'm angry.””
He studied my face.
“But we're not going to hide from this either.””
He nodded slowly.
I took out my phone.
The number on the paper was eleven digits, but one section was smeared.
There was only one way to know whether it belonged to Daniel.
I opened my contacts.
Nothing.
I searched old messages.
Nothing.
Emails.
Nothing.
Then I remembered something Sarah had said months ago.
We were sitting in bed after an argument about finances.
She had been crying.
She told me that Daniel had tried contacting her once through an old number.
She had claimed she blocked him immediately.
At the time, I comforted her.
Now I wondered whether I had comforted the wrong person.
I opened my browser and searched the name.
Nothing useful appeared.
I searched the phone number.
Still nothing.
I was about to give up when another thought hit me.
What if the second phone had the answer?
I looked toward the hallway.
“Ethan.””
He looked up.
“Where is Mom's black phone?””
“In her bedroom.””
“Does she keep it there?””
“Sometimes.””
I stood.
“Stay here.””
“Don't go upstairs.””
I turned.
“I won't.””
He pointed toward the staircase.
“Mom says never go through her things.””
“I know.””
“That's why I didn't.””
I believed him.
And somehow that made what I was about to do feel worse.
I wasn't snooping for revenge.
I was searching for the truth about a child.
I walked upstairs.
Every step seemed louder than it should have been.
Sarah and I had been married for five years.
I knew where she kept her jewelry.
I knew which side of the closet she hated.
I knew she slept with one foot outside the blanket because she said she got too hot.
But standing outside our bedroom door, I realized there were parts of her life I didn't know at all.
I opened the door.
The room smelled faintly of her perfume.
Her purse sat on the chair.
I checked the dresser.
Nothing.
Nightstand.
Nothing.
Then I noticed the bottom drawer was slightly open.
I pulled it out.
Under a stack of scarves was a black phone.
I froze.
My first instinct was to leave it there.
My second was stronger.
I picked it up.
The screen lit immediately.
No passcode.
My hands began to tremble.
There were only four apps visible on the home screen.
Messages.
Phone.
Notes.
Photos.
I opened Messages.
At the top was a conversation with an unsaved number.
The last message had been sent three days ago.
I tapped it.
There were dozens of messages.
My eyes moved quickly.
*You can't keep him from me forever.*
*Sarah, I know Mark doesn't know.*
*He deserves the truth too.*
Then Sarah's response:
*Stay away from my family.*
Daniel:
*They're my family too.*
Sarah:
*You gave that up.*
Daniel:
*No. You took it.*
I stopped breathing.
I scrolled.
Another message from Daniel appeared.
*Tell Mark what happened, or I will.*
My thumb hovered over the screen.
Then I saw the message beneath it.
Sent by Sarah.
*If you come near Ethan, he'll know you're the reason his mother had to protect him.*
The words made no sense.
Protect him from what?
I scrolled further.
Then I saw an attachment.
A photograph.
My heartbeat slammed against my ribs.
I opened it.
It showed Sarah.
Years younger.
Holding baby Ethan.
And standing beside her was Daniel.
But that wasn't what stopped me.
In the background was another person.
A man I recognized instantly.
My own father.
I stared at the photograph, unable to understand what I was seeing.
My father had died nine years ago.
He had never mentioned Sarah.
He had never mentioned Daniel.
He had never mentioned Ethan.
Yet there he was.
Standing behind them.
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And beneath the photo was a message from Daniel.
*Ask your wife why your father was there the night Ethan was born.*
